A Heavy Heart

7 weeks to go. All assignments and other pieces of assessments done. Only the exams left. Corp Regulation and Accountability on 12th, Workplace Relations on 17th and HRD on 20th. Then free for 12 days before I go home for good.

I've made up a list of things I don't wanna bring home and who I wanna give them to. I'll add more as I go through my stuff.

As the time for returning to Singapore draws nearer, my heart grows heavier.

Two weeks ago, I wanted nothing more than to get this over with and go home. Now, I'm starting to miss this place already. I'll miss so much things here. The crappy and unpredictable weather making life interesting, the long bushwalks in the cold with friends, Justyna who is wise beyond her years, Gillian who never fails to make me laugh, the night-time view of the Tasman bridge and the eastern shore from my room, sitting in the semi-darkness in my room doing my work, sleeping in the cold inside my sleeping bag, the freedom to do anything I want and not be (mostly) answerable, being able to just walk a few steps and go look for a friend to talk to, being one of the older guys around.

I never really had this role anywhere else. Being the oldest. Taking care and nurturing of the younger, less mature ones. Surprising, I find myself liking it. I'm not sure I'm doing too good a job at it but at least I think I'm making a little difference.

Went to the Singaporean Students Society BBQ at King's Beach. King's Beach is just what everybody calls it even though it is really called Flynn's Park and is located along Marieville Esplanade. It's such a pity that it's set up just as I am leaving. I really enjoyed talking to fellow Singaporeans with whom I don't have to watch what I am saying because they will know all my nuances and understand my pronunciation and slang. I've missed that and that's mostly why I miss home but I'll be missing this place so much too.

I guess this is the only SSS function that I'll be joining but I paid the AUD 5 to join the society anyway. It was nice to meet so many Singaporeans, I always wondered where they were hiding themselves cos I only know a few and know of a few more.

My shin hurted when I tried to run last Monday. I'll try again tomorrow.

Chris is finally throwing this 21st birthday party on Friday, 5 months after he actually turned 21. I wonder what I should get him, if anything at all. Prob not. No money.